I quit my job. But that’s really the end of the chapter. Let’s go back to the beginning…
About four years ago I was fired from my job. I have written about it before, but after 9 1/2 good years at the firm, the last six months were HELL. I was relieved to be let go.
I spent the next three months searching for a new job, a little broken and vulnerable. I landed at my next company right as my severance package ran out. I distinctly remember my life coach asking me almost three years ago if taking the position answered my calling – I believe my answer was no. But I had to pay the bills, I could retain all my financial licenses, and the work was relatively easy. And at that time in my life I needed easy.
After a year and a half in that position, I felt like I needed more. I applied for another position at the company in their technology division and got it. I was told it would be mostly administration of systems, behind the scenes work, and that appealed to me. I ended up working entirely from home. I was paid a nice wage. But the job morphed into much more contact with advisers and staff, and I was constantly battling with the vendors to get things done. It was the beginning of the end.
When the company rolled out a suite of new technology systems, things quickly went south. I was not provided the training and information on these new systems that I needed to do my job well. Advisers were frustrated because they couldn’t get answers, and several times they directed that frustration at me. After a particularly bad call, I decided I needed to do something.
I finally realized after THREE YEARS that all the consternation arose from the fact that my job did not answer my calling. It was not aligned with what fed my soul. I had a call with my life coach, did some shamanic journeying, and decided I needed to get really focused on what WOULD answer my calling.
Studying soil, trees, and plants in school for my landscape design certificate was a clue. I loved the subject matter and I enjoyed going to school. I had a passion for making wellness products with plant material and essential oils. I liked working in my own yard and could do it for hours without even thinking of eating or drinking. I tended to my houseplants like children. I wrote a lot about the benefits of nature. Do you see where I am going here? I finally did. To get aligned I needed a job involving nature. I had to begin my career in horticulture.
I crunched our budget (horticulture is notoriously low paying) and figured out what the numbers needed to be for us to cover our bills and not live paycheck to paycheck. I enlisted a friend to help with my resume and cover letters. I posted my resume on a job search website and got alerts to new landscaping positions. I started applying. I had a couple of interviews. I prayed to the universe every night to bring a landscaping job that would bring me abundance in both joy and money. But I was still terrified of leaving behind the job that paid well and allowed me to work from home – and that I dreaded doing every day.
I took another shamanic journey, and specifically asked if I should quit my current job. The answer was an emphatic yes. The bonus? Nature was the answer to my calling. I was on the right path. And it felt INCREDIBLE. Everything started to click. Words started jumping off the page related to my journeys, articles appeared online, things on TV. It was the universe answering my intention.
I scheduled a call with my life coach to go over some details. And would you believe that during that call a landscaping company called and offered me a job? It was like the planets aligned, and all was right in my world. I had more conversations with my husband to see if he was OK with it. He said if it made me happy we would make it work. I called my parents to tell them. That’s when I learned about the golden handcuffs.
My mom was in human resources at a large telephone company, and she said many executives wore them. It meant that the benefits and pay were really good, but they hated their job. They had responsibilities that could only be met with that paycheck, so they had to endure going to work every day unhappy. That was not going to be me.
I called the landscaping company back with a lot of questions, and they made a great impression answering them. I had another conversation with my husband. I took the job. And I quit my current job. I shed the golden handcuffs.
I realize this may sound like a fairy tale, but I want to make a couple of points before you dismiss that you could do the same:
- The universe always has your back.
- Well crafted, positive intentions can manifest the things you want in life.
- You have to put in the work to make it happen. Craft the intention, keep it alive, crunch the numbers, look at it from every angle, have the tough conversations.
- Put out the energy into the world that you want returned. I could have wallowed in my negative job situation, but instead chose to put out positive, hopeful energy which I believe was bestowed back upon me.
- Always go back to #1
I realize there may be bumps on my new road. But if you don’t experience those, I don’t really feel like you are living. I trust I will persevere and triumph over any obstacles, and cruise along on that new road. See #1 above.
If my story resonates with you, BELIEVE. Put in the work, exude the right energy, keep your intention alive, and don’t forget the universe is always working for your greatest good. Remember the mantra I provided in my blog, Why is it so Hard for Me to Do Nothing? It was BEnefit, to remember the benefits of taking some deserved down time. Now you have another mantra when you are ready to close a chapter and start anew – BELIEVE.